13 Days...

Time is not going by fast enough! I know 13 days does not seem like much, but to me, it is forever and a light year away! I am trying to enjoy Hawaii while it lasts, but I can not seem to get around that. And it gets worse everytime I talk to my family through skyping. My days do not go by fast. There is not enough to do to fill my time.
I miss the Christmas spirit. It does not feel like Christmas here when it is 80 degree weather. It looks funny when I see Christmas lights on houses. I just want to be home watching Christmas movies, listening to Christmas music, doing Christmas puzzles, cuddled up in a blanket, sweats, sweatshirt, long socks, on the couch, drinking hot chocolate.

No Place Like Home

Well 2 1/2 weeks left of Hawaii, and then I am out. However, it doesn't seem to come fast enough. I am sick of school, I have no desire or motivation to go anymore. Or even try for that matter of fact. I miss home, I miss my family, as odd as this is, I miss the cold. I've learned a lot being out here, not just in experiences, but of myself as well. I am grateful to have a break from school for Thanksgiving. However, Thanksgiving wont be the same, first Thanksgiving with my family. I thought living in Hawaii was supposed to be fun...so much for that. I will miss the sunrises, sunsets, and the beauty around me.
Last week, Justin and I took off on the bike. I went as far away from Laie as possible. Our first stop was Kailua Bay, one of the most beautiful beaches there is. We laid out for a good hour, however, it was a little windy that day, and it was like someone tried to bury us in the sand. After we brushed off a little bit, we were off. All the while driving along side of the beach. It was so beautiful and so many new sites to see. We stopped a few places, just to see the site and take in the beauty around us. Also for my butt to take a break and get some air. We were gone for a few good 6 hours or so.
Monday was Justin's birthday. I had a test that day, in which I would rather not mention how it went. But after that, we hopped on the bike and rode off into the cloudy weather. Headphones in, loud enough to block out the noise of the wind blowing past my ears. Our first stop: Waikiki Beach. Sun was out, and we fell asleep on the beach for about 2 hours. I was so tired, especially only getting 4 hours of sleep, attempting to study for my biology test. Since it was Justin's birthday, I was up to anything he wanted to do. So we stopped at a Walgreens, grabbed the usual 4 24 oz rockstars with some candy to go along with it for our movie: New Moon. It was a lot better then I expected. Then we enjoyed a smoothie at Jamba Juice. It was a beautiful night and a nice ride home. Thanks for treating Justin and I on his birthday mom!
Yesterday, I didn't go to school....what a surprise. Instead went out with some friends to Halewia where they surfed. There was not enough boards and I was okay with that, so I laid out and got some good sun! It was very peaceful and relaxing. After we ate some acai and watched the sunset. Once again, so beautiful.
Today was a little harder. No matter what kinds of things I do, for a temporary time, life is good. And then I am always brought back to wanting to come home. I am at the point to where I only want to hang out with a select few. I am not a very nice person. I just want to be a hermit crab and not talk to anyone. I am to the point to where I just want to shut my phone off, and then will have an excuse to why I didnt answer my phone, because I didnt know anyone called or texted me. I know this is not what I should be doing, especially if I have 19 days left, and I might not see these people for a long time, but at this point, I don't care. The only thing that is on my mind, is going home and my family. I miss the laughs, the memories, and just hanging out. I miss the christmas spirit. Because the weather is still like summer, it does not look right when I see christmas lights. It cant be christmas without cold weather and bundled up in front of the fire place, or hot showers, or wearing sweatshirts and sweats with socks up to my knees.
I am just wanting what I don't have. And right now, that is Utah, a place I like to call HOME!